| | It's been 2 weeks since I started residency, and though it has its moments of insanity, I've really enjoyed it so far. I think God went easy on me by having me start in the ER. Not to say that ER is easy, it's anything but easy-- the learning curve is like HUGE, but it is a good place to start for a nubie. And to my utter delight mostly everyone in the ER is super supportive at UMASS. Still very serious about their jobs, but also understanding and willing to correct you gently. Or it could just be me- I've had it much worse at some rotation sites in medical school that UMass is like a gift.
A few months ago I could have decided to move back to Oklahoma or Texas, but I chose to stay in Massachusetts, and I'm very glad about it. I was talking to my roommate 2 nights ago and could sympathize with how she was wanting to go back to Singapore even though her boyfriend is here in MA, still finishing up school, and had no desire to live in a foreign country. It made me remember something that my pastor's wife once told me when I was deciding whether I should leave or stay. When you find that person that you want to commit to and eventually marry, that person becomes your family. And aside from God, your family is more important than your career. I guess the challenge then became, was I really willing and ready to commit? Or was I just fooling around, wasting time, and playing with someone else's feelings?
...It's been 6 months since my engagement and I think I honestly have to say that saying yes to Mike was one of the hardest things I've ever done. Not because I don't love him and don't want to marry him, of course I do. But talking with my roommate reminded me that it was hard because I had to make the decision to let go of the uncertainty the future holds and just say yes, I want to commit my life to you. And that is no simple thing.
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| | Posted 7/14/2007 2:26 PM - 67 Views - 2 eProps - 1 Comment
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